"Where did she go?" I hear you ask...

 

Hey lovelies!

Long time, no see right? It's been almost eight months of silence on here and for that I'm sorry. People often wonder why I apologise for being absent when I need to be but I feel like I owe some sort of explanation to you all. This is probably where you say that you didn't notice I was gone hahaha! For those of you who did notice though, I guess this post is for you.

If you watched my stories around February this year then you may have seen me talk about why I suddenly lost contact with social media and how I didn't feel like I had a place there. The same can be said for my blog as it revolved around the same type of content plus my "identity crisis" throughout the pandemic started intensifying towards the end of 2020.

I wish I could say that I was stronger than to let the negative thoughts about my worth in this industry get to me but I honestly felt and admittedly sometimes still feel that I do not bring anything of value to the table that people have not already seen...stupid I know. The spiralling thoughts are usually what get me in trouble and more often that not I find reasons that I'm seemingly not good enough rather than providing actual evidence as to why I AM good enough.

I think the phrase "life got in the way" is fitting here as I stepped away from posting and focused on what I loved in real life. I delved into new music and reignited my passion for dance, I started working out consistently and eating better, I developed my sense of personal style and took inspiration from my newfound passions, I challenged myself physically and mentally, and I learnt more about myself than I did trying to fit the mould the blogger world created. I felt free and I felt happy but that's not to say I didn't have low points because I did and sometimes they consumed my days without any reason to in the first place.

With that said, I'm grateful for the change and I'm grateful that I have new things to share with you all from here on out. The things I love are bound to always change but what I hope won't change is my passion to come here to my little corner of the Internet to tell you all about it. You may not always relate to the what I love but I hope you find something, even one small thing, that makes you happy too.

Thank you for listening, I love ya for it...

XOXO